I tend to find something 2nd best and stick with it sorta never thinking about stepping up for the best things because Im too afraid to look up. Alot of things we cants succeed in like we need money, support or all that jazz.
Today
I broke up with my boyfriend
Realized that I will change schools mid year.
And will take the oppurtunity to travel (I was offered)
I realized I want to take photos
I realized I want to play my music and one day go off to the music college of my dreams.
Being 13
Apparently Im too young to think about my life
But im too old to not care about it.
Which brings me to here.
I have soccer try outs for a huge northern club
But all break Ive been sitting around indulging in food because
tumblrs here and yeah..
So im not sure If I can keep up with it anymore
My dad wants me to start running, which yeah sure but where do I run, living in a suburb where its like "everyone can see you and everyone knows you." And personally Im not comfortable around people when in the wide open by myself in some place that is just made for a stroll up the street.
In fact some place YOU SHOULDNT BE LEFT ALONE
And school
A bus full of crowded people
Fun.
You literally have to sit in a seat made for two people with two or three other people
I dont have alot of friends who go on there
and a majority of my friends go on there ...
So that freaks me out a bit because
Im not one bit social.
And everyone says it to my face "You're so unsocial."
So? I like being alone.
But when I got struck by this "Life change" I figured.
1. Be happy
2. Be true to yourself (even if it means not to anyone else)
3. Escape
Sometimes I feel like I want to grow up because theres so many oppurtunities
I know it sounds horribly stupid but the oppurtunities.
And the time it takes to get there from such a young age.
I wasnt really a person of waiting.
-Tayn
I have soccer try outs for a huge northern club
But all break Ive been sitting around indulging in food because
tumblrs here and yeah..
So im not sure If I can keep up with it anymore
My dad wants me to start running, which yeah sure but where do I run, living in a suburb where its like "everyone can see you and everyone knows you." And personally Im not comfortable around people when in the wide open by myself in some place that is just made for a stroll up the street.
In fact some place YOU SHOULDNT BE LEFT ALONE
And school
A bus full of crowded people
Fun.
You literally have to sit in a seat made for two people with two or three other people
I dont have alot of friends who go on there
and a majority of my friends go on there ...
So that freaks me out a bit because
Im not one bit social.
And everyone says it to my face "You're so unsocial."
So? I like being alone.
But when I got struck by this "Life change" I figured.
1. Be happy
2. Be true to yourself (even if it means not to anyone else)
3. Escape
Sometimes I feel like I want to grow up because theres so many oppurtunities
I know it sounds horribly stupid but the oppurtunities.
And the time it takes to get there from such a young age.
I wasnt really a person of waiting.
-Tayn
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